Thursday, November 3, 2011

The night I lost my marbles.

On Monday October 31, 2011 I took both dogs with me to run a ton of errands and my last stop was the grocery store. I always bring the dogs with me when the weather is cool because they love the car. I was in the grocery store for about 20 minutes tops and when I went out to my car...Oscar was gone. Diego was in the car whimpering and Oscar was nowhere is sight. I got in my car and started panicking....I laid my head on the steering wheel and took deep breathes and told myself not to freak out. I started feeling underneath the seats hoping he had crawled under—he hadn’t. The windows were not even down that much and I have taken Oscar in my car for 4 years and he has never once jumped out. I knew someone must have taken him. I got out of my car and just started running in circles looking around everywhere and yelling his name. I saw the security guard across the center and ran full speed to reach him. In a panic I asked the guard if he had seen a small dog and he told me that a dog jumped out of a car and when people tried to get him he ran away to the back of the center. I started running and I felt like I was seeing stars. I was running so fast screaming his name and all I could think of is that he went to the trail behind the shopping center. There is a huge trail and the first thought that crossed my mind was coyotes. It was pitch black by this time. I ran around the whole center and I couldn’t find him. I ran back to my car and got in with Diego and started driving everywhere calling his name; I was
losing it. I called Elizabeth, my roommate and she was just getting home when I drove past the complex. She asked what was going on and I immediately broke down into the hardest cry and couldn’t breathe. I don’t even know how she understood me but she literally threw all of her stuff down and started running down the street calling his name. I called mom and Amira too. My mom started crying and my dad was telling me to put flyers up. Amira said she was coming down to help me look. I think everyone was quite aware of what would happen to me if I never found Oscar again; I would need serious mental help. I parked my car and just started running the streets with Diego and I couldn’t even say his name loudly because I was crying so hard.
People must have thought I was crazy. I was literally just walking and
sobbing in the streets. I stopped this older couple and asked them if they saw him and
they couldn’t understand me and they just stared at me like I was psycho.
I wanted to punch them in the face. I literally felt so hopeless. I was
imagining never seeing him again and I knew I wasn’t going to be
okay. I wanted to quit my job and just lie in bed and die. I kept saying "I can’t live without
him" as I was crying and walking the streets. I literally went crazy.

I circled back to the complex and I just sat in the grass and started
hyperventilating and then I heard this couple coming out of our complex
with two black dogs. I looked up and then I saw Oscar run past them and head
straight for me. He dove into my arms and of course he was covered in poop (I wouldn’t expect anything less). The couple asked me if he was mine and I was crying saying “yes!!”
They said he was hiding in the stairs of my complex for the last 30 minutes. I cannot even begin to tell you that it was truly the happiest feeling in my life when I saw him running towards me. I kept crying the rest of the night out of nowhere just thinking about what happened. Then I had the
most pounding migraine all night from crying so hard and Oscar had
explosive diarrhea so I got a total of one hour of sleep. I hugged him so
tight while we were sleeping though because I wanted him to know how thankful I was to have found him. I think the gentleman was a little shaken up too or at least I’d like to think so.
In conclusion, my mom thinks that he jumped out of the car because he had to go to the bathroom (he had been having an upset stomach a few days before). He was smart enough to run the entire way home though and wait at the top of the stairs in the complex until I came home.
It was honestly a really scary moment for me and as dramatic as it sounds because he is ‘a dog’ I couldn’t imagine what my life was going to be like without the little guy.
Never take anything for granted. Love you Osci boo boo

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